the tube

so eventually went and get the tube up... 1st of all thanks to priya chinlung ninder and dad for the support..
everything went well but the bill was crazy and the staff needed to be shot down... nothing is wrong so far. fingers crossed. antibiotics time now..

well since we have got that out of the way. it is time to eat right again and start taking care of my health... no more procastinating.. as u can see.. i believed i wrote smth like this before.. gimme time to be persistent..

Persistent is an important thing to have. it helps alot and u just gotta keep reminding yaself!.
still got some wind/air in the tummy but hungry and been eating a fair bit.

lets keep it like this and start studying.
4.0

ouusshhh

well well. last thursday night was a night out with the classmates at the disco. it went swell accept that i was sick in my gut and had to puke n was shivering cold. goddam body..

made appoinment with the doc and will undergo a colon test on monday and hopefully the prob will arise or no problem but definately have to do something about me shivering all the time...
was at skytrex today. some challenge thingy where u hang and stuff... with carribiners n shit.. but it wasnt the most challenging thing. but it was okay.... still prefer flying and how i fucking miss it.

and its about time to go for a surf trip.

things with me n her? oh well.... i guess its taking it slow... she still doesnt quite feel me yet.... i dont know if she misses me or if she is cool without me..... if only i can read her mind... how does she really feel. saying is 1 thing.. feeling is another...

tired now and go to definately start studying. tmrw .!!!!!
exams 8th-14january. gotta score again. Got To

made up my mind too about obtaining the bigger class motorbike license so i can take my dads bike out. hahaha.. need some sort of transport.. hopefully and need some even jobs in january!

WELL going out for a BBQ. night!

shaky

today wasnt teh best day, came down with some temperory fever,havent been:
sleeping well
eating well

this sleeping problem is becoming a nuisance. didnt feel good about meself too.
alot needs to be worked on. what happen to my priority and that Ben who was on his own when ijust got back to KL.

too much relying. and for what? this definately has got to stop.
well going out with the classmates. its time to search for young ben to come out and play.

relax - dont think too much

Small but Bright-er

today was a swell day although there were only about 2 hours of sleep..
class was good and had a blast with my classmates... slowly getting there crazier today. more to come.
nows its just a quiet night alone... chilling =)

good news coming your way big brother. smile

Tarrot

so today we found out about this tarrot place.. it had promotion so it was RM10. the dude was precise on her so i thought i would give it a shot and it turned out to be quite true also. things to note to myself :

Chariot ( my mind ) : i can earn money by working for a fren. like a parnter.. and also i need to be out there. not indooor. whic i know hehe

Star ( hands ) : apparently im meticulous... which i guess is true.. and i think deeper than others. so he says. which is a good sign and that i have lots of dreams but it will take me a while to get there

Fortune ( hands ) : i need change my image, be more open and friendly to ppl... it will attract good.. this would probably be the 1st step i need change ...

then again. i know all this. but its REALLY time to practice it. come on BEN. lets do this for once and for alll.

time to wake up

again and again im telling myself that she needs to be put a side. ive got bigger things to worry about. studying cause ive got 3 weeks and i need that 4.0 again =) so looking back on this post i should remind meself.
evil thoughts or maybe it isnt. i dont know yet..but i keep thinking or perceiving her intentions. is she really like that or is it me im looking at a narrow point of view. so much imperfection to fix. slowly... just let loose. let loose.

Introduction

Changing oneself is something delicate. Some people do think of it, some dont , some doesnt think its necessary. As we age, we look at things at a different prespective and begin to realise more things about ourselves. I have recently realise a whole lot that i need to work on. 1st thing up is procrastinating, title speaks for itself. Then there is the pessimitic side i need to kick out of my system and yeah. lets work on this 2 first.